Able to Atone

 

My soul shivers in trepidation

as it feels the pain of eternal damnation.

 

In the quiet catacombs of my mind

in the ink black depths of the night

whispering prayers to the void

the heavy weight of doubt a constant fight.

 

Questions unanswered multiply in the darkness

lost in confusion with whispers of fear

the weight of uncertainty like an anchor

each and every passing year.

 

Doubt rustles the mind like leaves in the wind

as my heart searches in vain

my spirit dying like summers parched grass

hoping the race to nowhere will not be my domain.

 

Then out of nowhere an inner voice I heard

"have faith Peter" you must trust the unseen

the only way forward to release my pain

is let my Higher Power guide me, to intervene.

 

Slowly as my heart starts to mend

the fog of my doubt begins to end.

Each and every breath that I take

I find a newfound belief in the power of faith.

Relief in the midst of this self-made darkness

my soul and faith restored and renewed,

the light starts to show me the right and correct way

guiding my soul and how life should be viewed.

 

Thankful for the Lord's forgiveness and mercy

as truth shines on me from his golden throne

may it grant me the courage for tonight

let me embrace you more fiercely, let your light be shown.

 

Let me know that I am not all alone

for it is only by your saving grace, that I am,

able to atone.

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-Peter